{"id":814,"date":"2012-01-23T08:37:29","date_gmt":"2012-01-23T16:37:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.dianastevan.com\/?p=814"},"modified":"2020-10-03T12:11:57","modified_gmt":"2020-10-03T19:11:57","slug":"dreams-that-work-overtime","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.dianastevan.com\/uk\/2012\/uncategorized\/dreams-that-work-overtime\/","title":{"rendered":"Dreams That Work Overtime"},"content":{"rendered":"

Do you ever feel as if your life has taken a dramatic turn, as if you are part of some cosmic shift? That\u2019s the feeling I woke up with late this morning. My body felt as if I\u2019d been hit by a wall of water. My eyes were heavy and my legs sluggish as I dragged myself to the living room to tell my husband about my bad dream.\u00a0 A dream that worked overtime to tell me all was not well.<\/p>\n

My Black Bag<\/h3>\n

I dreamt I couldn\u2019t find my black bag with all my identity in it, \"dreams<\/a>including my cell phone. There were a lot of black bags in the house I was in, as there had been a lot of visitors but mine was missing.<\/p>\n

I knew that my mother and father were waiting to see me\u2014in life, they are both deceased\u2014and I was very late, but I didn\u2019t want to leave without my bag. And then I saw my aunt, who in life has been dead for many decades, come down these stairs with her daughter but I didn\u2019t get a chance to even say hello. I just stood there stunned that I couldn\u2019t find what I was looking for.<\/p>\n

The couple I was with were sitting in front of a bowl of something gelatinous with cherries in it. When I noticed the bowl overflowed on the table, I brought the mess to their attention but they didn\u2019t care.<\/p>\n

My Analysis<\/h3>\n

\"\"<\/a>After I woke up, I realized I was still processing my grief over losing my mother, and perhaps still, my father.\u00a0 There is no time limit on grieving. It is what it is. And that is the way it is for all of us. Some move through it faster than others. For me, it\u2019s been like wading through molasses to get to the other side.\u00a0<\/p>\n

The fact that my black bag figured large in my dream was related to the fact I’d left my bag at my daughter’s house the day before. But my dream wasn’t about that, it was more about identity. I hadn’t just lost a bag, I had lost a sense of myself. Part of me had gone with the death of my mother, not that we were alike, but in some ways we were cut from the same cloth.\u00a0 And the gelatinous mess in my dream? Well, it’s how I feel inside. My sub-conscious chose the perfect image.<\/p>\n

Some New Joys<\/h3>\n

But it\u2019s not like I\u2019ve been sitting around moping. Actually, since my mother passed away, there have been some new joys. My daughter has completed her chemotherapy and radiation and her recent tests indicate the cancer is gone.<\/p>\n

And I\u2019ve finished writing a short screenplay with my grandson, and an excerpt from a work-in-progress will be published in an anthology, called ESCAPE, this October by Peregrin Publishing. So, despite my black night, there is a lot of good percolating.\u00a0 I just have to ride the waves as they come.<\/p>\n\n\n

Have your dreams been working overtime? Any comments are always appreciated. <\/h4>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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